forgotten..

maybe not..

she made me like this..

i dont mind learning to feel pain at an early age, i dont mind ruining my life coz i fell hard, i dont mind bein alone..

but i do deny things i cant control.

i wish you were rude to me.. but you talked to me for an hour..
i wish you didnt smile at me.. but you laughed like a child to my silly and corny jokes..
i wish you're ugly.. but your skin.. pale,white, angelic...
i wish you didnt hold my hand inside the elevator coz you got scared coz its old and noisy.. but your hand felt as if you knew me and you trusted me..

that was the first time i really loved someone.. but all i know bout you is your name and you are a friend of a friend..

i dont think you noticed that you took something..

my soul..

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he always wakes up early..openning his mom's furniture shop..didnt mind lifting things.. sofas, chairs, beds and tables.... thats his workout..or maybe just earning his keeps.. after that, he went upstairs and got ready for his enrollment.. 2nd year now.. Bachelor of Fine Arts majoring in Advertising.. he love what he was takin, not his first choice but he find peace and expression doin stuff..

he always wear his old torned pair of jeans.. white shirts and sandals.. he belonged to a group of student who had their hair grew long.. 5'10" 150lbs, fair skin.. people always stare at him.. looking.. thinking.. admiring? he doesnt care..

theres no traffic, the commute was fast.. got too early..he headed straight to his building..
took the stairs coz the old slow dirty box they so called elevator was out of order again.. half the school year it was..

7 floors.. 3 mins he took to reach his room..

the first thing he saw was two girls talking.. one was familliar and one was a face smilling..

he said hi..and she responded with a grin.. he was suprised.. was so cute.. he pulled a chair and started askin stuff but always trying to find words.. hes not really a talker.. he always prefer silence but that time he wants to converse, listen, ask and joke..

he felt nice..

his friend ask if he doesnt mind staying with deenah for a moment..she'll just enroll and be back after an hour.. he answered with a smile and thought that it wouldnt hurt to enroll the next day..


life was gettin better.. he thougth..